R, S, U or halfway out the door. :)

Long done with Mr. Promos. :)
Only one word that comes to my mind after all of the papers were away from my grip.
Yes, it's the bad R or S word.
Despite the fact that i've studied quite hard.
At times, i do feel that i need one more year in order to not have any feelings of doubts at all, to get into the desired U.
Like they say, you have to sacrifice, no matter how hard it is if you really want to reach that certain dream of yours.
I've had seniors who could no even get into U and they then had to spend another few years of their lives working hard, AGAIN, to walk their way to that dream place of theirs.
and i thought, IF that were to happen to me, it would be worse, than just having to R or S for another year in JC. ( though it wouldn't be a good experience at all )
BUT, i would really reaaaallllllyyyyyyyy be sad due to the fact that,
if that happens, i won't be in the same class, spending much time with
my great friends anymore.
Heart-wrenching, that's a definite YES. :(
I do love my class despite all the things that have happened.
As time passes by, we all know that we will somehow get used to each other. :)
and of course, not being able to promote as a whole hockey team together.
Sheesh.
Well, well, what can i say, the feeling of it happening to me seems so real.
If it really do happen, then, there must be a reason to it.
Only that someday i'll soon know what it is. :)
There's gotta be more to life.
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
Cause the more that I'm,
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life.
Well it's life, but I'm sure,
there's gotta be more.
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door.
Onto the next thing,
I'm searching for something that's missing.